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2011-03-18 08:59:13 UTC
i'm 18, in college going to uni in september. i live with my mum and dad and my boyfriend may aswell practially live here.
right so, in the beginning of february my mum told me she had cancer, she got it treated and the cancer was gone by march (she's having radiotherapy still but theres no cancer). around the 12th of feb i read an article on tinitus and thought nothing more if it.
around the 12th of feb me and my boyfriend had the biggest argument ever, i was so hurt. we made up then went for a meal and i was starving and i ate what i could but i felt sick and had to get otu of the place and away from the food. for a week i couldnt eat much, i was starving but the thought of eating made me feel sick and it really worried me, i thought i'd never be normal again. i went to the doctor he said i was depressed and prescribed antidepressents. i took one and it made me eat but really tired and nauseus so i never took them again. i decided to go and see my friends more and gradually got back on track and returned to normal.
however now, i think i may have tinnitus. theres an extremely hgh pitched whistle in my ear and i think about it all the time and its bringing me down again. i worry about it all day dreading trying to get to sleep because i know it will be there. im sure ive always had this ringing, because everybpdy hears a noise they just pay no attention to it but now i think it oculd be something worse.
i do listen to my ipod full blast alot but not more than the average person i wouls say.
i think it could all be in my head because of everything thats happened and reading the article and i think it could be anxiety and mental. i dont want to go to the doctorss again incase he thinks im making it up because its so close to what happened abbout the eating. ive tld me mum and she said i should go to the doctors. ive never had anxiety ttacks but my brother had some a few years ago
so i have a few questions.
1. do you think its just anxiety
2. if so, is there something i can take to reduce the anxiety? not anti-depressants but something to calm me
3. if it is tinnitus, how can i learn to dea with it?
4. anyone with tinitus know how to sleep better?
please help, im sick of everything. my lifes good exceppt for this and its bringing me down. i want to go to sleep and never wake up. i would never kil myself but i always think that if i died right now, i wouldnt care. i tell my boyfriend this but he goes mad. i dont mean to hurt him i just need to tell someone. please dont tell me im depressed, i love my life except for this 'tinnitus'. thanks for reading it all, and thanks in advance for any answers you can give.